Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Angry Eyes

 I'm packing your extra pair of shoes, and your angry eyes just in case.
-Mrs. Potatohead, Toy Story 2

In committing to being authentic on this blog, I feel I need to come clean on how I've been feeling lately. I'm hoping in sharing it helps someone who might be feeling the same way and is looking for a way to change it.

So lately I've had my "angry eyes" on. Not at anyone in particular but at the loss of life balance and stress. This is busy season at my work and in the last few weeks it's gotten pretty crazy. It's long days, late nights, and a total sense of being overwhelmed. It's the nature of the job. It happens every year at this time. You would think that after 7 years of working in the toy industry I would be use to this. I'm not. This year in particular I'm feeling it more because there is also a lot going on in my personal life.  Being at work so much and coming home exhausted doesn't leave much time to stay on top of the life things I need to accomplish. (I can't imagine how folks with kids feel!) With everyone at my job super stressed it makes tensions a little high. No matter how much you like your co-workers (and I genuinely do!), when you all have on your angry/stress eyes, it can lead to some serious misunderstandings and rough patches.

Last night was a particularly rough night and to top it off Tom was away for buisness. (He's my calmer-downer, recenter-er) As I was laying in bed trying not to be pissed at the world I realized how exhausted I was. Not only from the day but from holding on to this anger. Being angry was affecting how I looked at every situation at work and every person.  At that moment I knew I needed to make a change. I can't change the nature of the business and I can't change other people but I can change my outlook. I can change my reaction. So I started trying to look at the situation differently. Yes, I even recited "It's not forever, It's just for now" and I made a promise to myself that tomorrow I would try to be positive. I made a promise to try to look at things through my "happy eyes" and not let my anger cloud me. 

I still slept like crap (dang you stress!) But when I got to work in the morning, I didn't feel angry. I chose to go into it with renewed energy knowing that no matter what happened that day, I was going to get through it. I was going to be caring with co-workers (because hey, I understand why they are stressed, we're in this boat together!) And no matter what this day brought, I was going to come home to a house I love and people who loved me. This time of year is always going to be stressful at this job. I just need to keep in mind all the other good days, all the things I'm grateful for, and all the things I have to look forward too. 

You can't always change the situation but you can change the way you look at it and the way you react to it. Heck, that might even be the lesson the universe wants you to learn. 

So if you can, try to put your angry eyes away.. your happy eyes are more fun anyway!

PS all of the stress is going to pay off when our company showrooms look awesome this year!

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