It’s friday. Pull up a chair and let’s catch up. Or rather I’ll catch you up on life around here! It’s been quiet on the blog for a while now. There has just been so much happening behind the scenes here that needed my focus. I have to admit, I’ve been avoiding the blog a bit. (eek) Sounds crazy right? but see I felt guilty about not writing and I have to admit I’ve had writers block for a while now. Things were just flowing out of me when I started the blog. I mean I had a journal with me at all times because ideas were just flying out of my head. bam, bang, boom! Then life got busier and I’ve been struggling to keep it all together ever since.
Stress got me. Between work during the day, classes at night, coaching, wedding planning, and one adorable puppy. I just lost it. I’m a recovering perfectionist. I want to do it all and be perfect at it. The list in my head read like this: have a spotlessly clean house, provide rockin ideas at work, write amazing blog content, give great coaching, have a perfectly behaved puppy (try making that happen), spend quality time with Tom, get exercise, eat healthy, oh yea and try to sleep somewhere in there too. I was over stressed, over whelmed, and my head was so full of what I needed to do that it blocked any and all creativity. I was just trying to get through each day, to get to the weekend, so I could actually relax for a few minutes. I was agitated because I wasn’t getting any “take care of me” time and becoming angrier by the second. I was sick of myself! Everything was priority so nothing was therefore not much was getting done. I needed a change!
I’m a big believer in the power of thought. I kid you not the week I felt like I was really going down I found out I won a session with my favorite coach, Michelle Ward, the When I Grow Up Coach. Ask and ye shall receive says the universe! Michelle helped me re-prioritize and get my head back in the game. The next day I decided I wasn’t going to be unhappy anymore. I had so much to be thankful for and so many great things happening that it was ridiculous to let stress take away my happiness. So the next day I woke up and set the intention to Be Happy. No matter what happened that day! If something happened that started to set me down the grumpy gills path I started counting all the things that I was greatful for and you know what? That was the first day in a while, that I came home and said to Tom “ you know what, it was crazy today but I feel really good”
Gratitude. Ain’t nobody NOT got time for dat. (If you don’t get that joke, go look up sweet brown right now!)
Everyday since I’ve been feeling better and better. Now I’m not saying thats the only thing that changed. Ganon is growing so fast and learning even faster. We aren’t totally potty trained but we don’t have to watch him liek hawks anymore either. Puppy daycare has been a God send too! (Seriously, I can’t say enough good things about it.) I started with a new peer coach, who is wonderful! Work has started to calm a bit and dear Lord thank you for daylight savings time! I need the sun, people!!
The biggest change though... my attitude, my perception of things. It’s like having a bunch of glasses with different color lenses. Say you’ve been wearing your green colored lenses for a while. Eventually you start to think everything is tinted green. You forget you have glasses on even! It seems like nothing will ever change color! Then you remember, oh right, I have rose color glasses too! You change your perception of things. I needed to look at what was going on in life differently. I needed to see I wasn’t stuck, or under water. Things were changing and still are. It was just the in-between!
I needed to get over the guilt of not being perfect either. Perfectionism is for the birds. (Actually, I doubt they care!) Its EXHAUSTING trying to be perfect and the reality is, folks would rather you just be you anyway. No one is perfect. People forget things. They leave dishes in the sink and mail on the counter. They get stressed and things fall through the cracks. Its life. It will get better. I felt guilty about not writing on the blog, as though I was letting everyone down and more importantly myself down. I realized though that if I wasn’t living life and going through “stuff” I wouldn't have anything to write about anyway. You have to practice what you preach and the last few months gave me plenty of time to practice!
If you’re having a stressful patch right now too. Hang in there, I swear it’s gonna get better! Sometimes you have to go through the opposite of what you want to be able to appreciate the thing you want when you get them. In the mean time, try on some new glasses and remember it’s not forever...it’s just for now!
Alright, now let’s go spike our coffee with Bailey’s! Hey, It’s friday!